I wrote a song about my dad
based on feelings that I had.
Feeling incomplete and like I had to compete with a life frozen in time.
A name not mine. Although she’s divine, she’s not alive outside our minds.
When my sister died
I thought I could write through the pain
the world still turned the same
although I am not the same and it hurts to say her name.
A young Black woman
slain
by a man with a bottle stained on the forefront of his brain.
I stead of safety, how insane.
If you're not ready, I can't make you. Making this trip but I can't take you Feeling you around me Your energy body found me. When will your mind catch up? Not trying to rush I know it feels like too much. Your heart in my hand clutch. You say you don't want to fall afraid to land with your head in the sand yet you're nowhere near the ground at all. What is having it together What is love without Letter When will things get better? She loves you but why wont you let her? Deserving more From myself, from everyone else. But they'll treat you how you let them Can't beat you less you bet em lessons you signed up for so get em Now why would you do that TO yourself? I can't force you. I don't want to . I have visions of me and you. Will the time come when I look back at feeling this way like it was stupid and everything was fine? Probably, and I'm okay with that. Healing doesn't look like sunshine No one remembers the pain once it's past they can't tap into a hurt they've released subconsciously it's there it just doesn't hit the same you dream of me, I know you do You're not afraid of me, you're scared of you Scared to be alone with thoughts so true so you do to me what was done to you but it doesnt help does it? it still hurts doesnt' it and now I'm crying and inside you're dying it all could have been avoided with some honesty honestly man up! I contemplated getting drunk just to be honest with my feelings sometimes I wish you'd do the same in my sleep i call out your name I'm tired of playing this game
Kaleah Callaway 